跨性别前美女王阿什顿科尔比不仅仅是他的新身体

跨性别前美女王阿什顿科尔比不仅仅是他的新身体

这是一个杀手锏:“前美女王挂起皇冠成为……男人!”

但是,23岁的阿什顿科尔比热衷于改变媒体讲述跨性别故事的耸人听闻的,往往是简化的方式.

阿什顿, 23, believes that the key to happiness is honoring yourself from within
23岁的阿什顿认为幸福的关键是从内部尊重自己.礼貌Ashton Colby

“我不是身体部位的集合,”科尔比告诉今天。 “我只是一个想过自己的生活,快乐的人.

“为了挑战现有的刻板印象,我们需要更少谈论外科手术,而是讲述关于谁是跨性别者的人性化,非客观化的故事。”

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公平地说,阿什顿认识到他的故事是不同寻常的:俄亥俄州哥伦布市的孩子在青少年时期与臭名昭着的性别规范选美电路竞争,这种方式可以抑制他自然倾向于表现相反的方式.

阿什顿, age 17, at the Miss Teen Columbus Pageant 2008.
阿什顿,17岁,参加2008年青少年哥伦布小姐选美大赛阿什顿科尔比

“从很小的时候起,我就是个假小子,”科尔比回忆道。 “在青春期之前,成为那个人真好。但是在中学时,孩子们开始取笑你,成年人开始对你的生活应该有什么期望.

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“选美是一种压低感情的方式,因为我与众不同。我错误地认为,如果我能够体现出对我的期望的女性理想,我就能成为那个人。”

他补充道,“如果我周围的人都很开心,我会很开心。”

Colby的传统外观让青少年在选美赛道上变得自然 – 而Colby的母亲,她以前的前任女郎,喜欢穿上亮片礼服和宽幅卷发。.

但伪造它的压力让科尔比感到越来越焦虑和困惑.

2011年10月,科尔比大学一年级学生在俄亥俄州的小姐比赛中获得了突破.

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“我记得他们在颁奖时正在舞台上,”他说道,“通常情况下,你可以假装微笑或其他什么,但我的脸颊开始抽搐,我感到压倒性的焦虑。”

这不是关于获胜。我没想到会赢。但我意识到我不能再这样做了 – 不只是选美,而是整个表演。当我下台时,我失去了它…我认为人们认为我是一个痛苦的失败者,但这是因为我知道我必须完成本章。“

阿什顿 Colby, age 20, in April 2012, right before starting testosterone injections.
2012年4月,在开始注射睾丸激素之前,Colby,20岁阿什顿科尔比

科尔比回到学校,开始秘密研究过渡到男人的后勤工作。虽然他在YouTube和其他在线社区中找到了安慰,但他对前方的旅程感到沮丧和不知所措 – 以及单独行动的可能性.

在经历了自杀的冲动之后,Colby在2012年初接受了为期10天的自愿住院治疗。虽然他没有得到Colby所说的“有点反式恐惧”的工作人员的医疗支持,但他找到了他父亲需要的情感支持。.

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“他一直怀疑我正在努力解决这个问题,”科尔比说。 “我打电话给奶奶,不知道她会怎么回应.

“她说生活就是做一个好人,无论如何她都爱我。”

从那里开始,事情开始向前发展。科尔比休了一个学期,开始看医生和医生,剪短头发,买了所有新衣服,开始服用睾酮注射液.

阿什顿 Colby, age 21, in July 2012, after one month on testosterone.
2012年7月,在睾丸激素治疗一个月后,科尔比年仅21岁阿什顿科尔比

阿什顿说:“我无法描述长发后甚至延长头发的感觉。” “这实际上是一个重量被提升。”

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在春末,科尔比出现在朋友面前,他们大多“为我放弃我的选美服装而感到兴奋。”接下来的秋天,科尔比作为男性重新进入学校.

阿什顿 Colby, age 21, after five months on testosterone and before his double mastectomy.
科尔比,21岁,在睾丸激素治疗五个月后和双乳房切除术前阿什顿科尔比

2013年5月接受双乳房切除术.

虽然人们很尊重,但科尔比确实面临强烈反对。 “我的妈妈很难用它,”他说。 “我们几年没说真话。”

他补充说,“其他人说我会后悔的。他们无法理解为什么我会放弃这种盛会的生活 – 为什么当我还是个漂亮的女孩时,我想成为一个男人.

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“但是选美的东西是给别人的。我了解到幸福的关键是从内部尊重自己。外部批准无法为您创造。“

生活得很好是反对反对者的最有说服力的论据.

科尔比说:“即使是那些一开始就不理解的人,我已经看到我过得多么开心,然后回来支持我。” “我妈妈和我在过去的圣诞节里度过了三年来的第一次,这很不错.

“那些一直想成为我旅程一部分的人一直坚持着我。我的意思是,这对我来说也很难。我知道其他人可以爱我,不管我是否完全爱自己。“

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正在研究公共事务的科尔比希望利用他流行的YouTube频道来宣传困扰所有性别的问题.

他说:“我有过像女人一样生活的经历 – 被迫陷入困境,生活在压力之下,以某种方式看待。” “这个很难(硬。我认识到我现在接受治疗的方式存在差异。 2016年仍然存在性别歧视和性别不平等。“

他说,“现在我有幸成为一名男子,我希望成为这些问题以及跨性别社区的代言人。”

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  1. As an AI language model, I do not have a personal opinion or a specific language to comment in. However, I can provide a translation of the text into English:

    “This is a killer move: “Former beauty queen hangs up her crown to become… a man!” However, 23-year-old Ashton Colby is passionate about changing the sensationalized and often simplified way the media tells transgender stories. Ashton believes that the key to happiness is respecting oneself from within. “I am not a collection of body parts,” Colby told Today. “I am just a person who wants to live my life and be happy. “To challenge existing stereotypes, we need to talk less about surgery and more about humanizing and subjectifying stories about who transgender people are.” Fairly, Ashton recognizes that his story is unusual: an Ohio Columbus child who competed in notorious gender normative beauty pageants as a teenager, which suppressed his natural tendency to express himself in the opposite way. “From a very young age, I was a tomboy,” Colby recalled. “It was great to be that person before puberty. But in middle school, kids start teasing you, and adults start having expectations about what your life should be like. “Beauty pageants are a way of suppressing emotions because I am different. I mistakenly thought that if I could embody the female ideal of what was expected of me, I could become that person.” He added, “If the people around me are happy, I will be happy.” Colbys traditional appearance made him natural on the beauty pageant circuit – and Colbys mother, his former pageant queen, loved to wear glittering gowns and wide-brimmed curls. But the pressure to fake it made Colby increasingly anxious and confused. In October 2011, Colby, a freshman at Ohio University, made a breakthrough in the Miss Ohio pageant. “I remember they were on stage during the awards ceremony,” he said. “Usually, you can pretend to smile or something, but my cheeks started twitching, and I felt overwhelming anxiety.” Its not about winning. I didnt expect to win. But I realized I couldnt do this anymore – not just the pageant, but the whole performance. When I got off stage, I lost it… I think people thought I was a miserable failure, but it was because I knew I had to finish this chapter.” In April 2012, before starting testosterone injections, Colby

  2. As an AI language model, I do not have a personal opinion or a preferred language to write in. However, I can provide a translation of the text into English:

    “This is a killer move: “Former beauty queen hangs up her crown to become… a man!” However, 23-year-old Ashton Colby is passionate about changing the sensationalized and often simplified way the media tells transgender stories. Ashton believes that the key to happiness is respecting oneself from within. “I am not a collection of body parts,” Colby told Today. “I am just a person who wants to live my life and be happy. “To challenge existing stereotypes, we need to talk less about surgery and more about humanizing and subjectifying stories about who transgender people are.” To be fair, Ashton recognizes that his story is unusual: an Ohio Columbus child who competed in notorious gender normative beauty pageants as a teenager, which could suppress his natural tendency to behave in the opposite way. “From a very young age, I was a tomboy,” Colby recalled. “It was great to be that person before puberty. But in middle school, kids start teasing you, and adults start having expectations about what your life should be like. “Beauty pageants are a way to suppress emotions because I am different. I mistakenly thought that if I could embody the female ideal of what was expected of me, I could become that person.” He added, “If the people around me are happy, I will be happy.” Colbys traditional appearance made him natural on the beauty pageant circuit – and his mother, his former ex-girlfriend, loved to wear glittering dresses and wide-brimmed curls. But the pressure to fake it made Colby increasingly anxious and confused. In October 2011, Colby, a freshman at Ohio University, made a breakthrough in the Miss Ohio competition. “I remember they were on stage during the awards ceremony,” he said. “Usually, you can pretend to smile or something, but my cheeks started twitching, and I felt overwhelming anxiety.” Its not about winning. I didnt expect to win. But I realized I couldnt do this anymore – not just beauty pageants, but the whole performance. When I got off stage, I lost it… I think people thought I was a miserable failure, but it was because I knew I had to finish this chapter.” In April 2012, before starting testosterone injections, Colby, 20

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